14:15pm, Partly Cloudy and the south eastern wind gushing at 10km/h with a dip in temperature (6°C) making it one of the worst winter evening here in Berne. Today is very special day for me, as I accelerated further and proved a steep rise, clearing my internals with good points. and received my Private Pilot License (PPL) from ICAO as I completed my 50 flying hours! 200 hours more to go, before I can grab the Golden Hat, the Commercial Pilot License (CPL) that will enable me to fly with passengers (addon ATPL).

Today a special day because, 17 (including me) of the students cleared and made themselves eligible for PPL, out of 50 students and our academy director is throwing a party at his lavish home downtown, so I am quite excited but not that excited as I sound! I am happy but I wish I could have shared my happiness, with my gf alone, not with these bunch of unknown souls.

I made 700$ (Quite a lot) by investing 100$ over Casinos yesterday night and I bought myself one persian t-shirt along with some distasteful chocolates from a local market nearby the airport and I was so happy wearing it and flashing the golden persian letters to the heaven above. It indeed satiated me a little when I was missing her, upto the heights of mountain!

Words are words .. It cant speak emotions, no matter how hard you try and its quite improbable for someone to understand what exactly your heart wanted to speak out. As long as you love someone, it hurts. Even trying your best, you are not around her and neither she can hear or understand your so called notions. Ain;t I am correct?

Since the time I changed my relegion, my parents, my brother and everyone, dont like me a much but I dont rekall it, as I know, the more I will think about it, the more it will hurt me. I followed just the right esteemed path and I am happy with my decision (embrasing Islam). I dont hate them, as they gave me proper love, education and support, the basic needs, yes they did fulfilled but I still cant search so many missing parts, of our 'once a time' relationship.

I have just nobody to talk to. Just a lonely me and I am happy like this. Since so many days, I didnt speak to her. I did tried to talk to her but like always, I am at loss! She dont call me either and her computer is having a viral fever! Nothing to do .. except keeping this feeling, and an abundant emotions! I dont know what the future will bring for me, path ahead and if I never make it, I will look ahead to die in the crimson skies.

So far, I beleived that God will be here with me, in the hour of my need but I forgot he left my world, and me, long time back ...........